June 29, 2013

So my friends got my name to be on our senior shirts next year, even though I was only there for less than a year of high school. https://fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-ash3/563307_10200509045833116_735515437_n.jpg . They're buying me a shirt so I can pick it up from them once I get back to the States. I'm happy about that I guess, but it still sucks that I won't be able to spend my senior year doing the things I had been dreaming about since forever. I kind of need to, if you will excuse the term, get my shit together, or I'll never even be able to go back to begin with. I don't pretend to believe that anything is a given anymore. Whenever something bad happened to me, I had always found comfort by telling myself that it couldn't get any worse. But I turned out to be pretty wrong every time, and I learned that you don't want to challenge life, because it can always be worse. So now I have to fight my way back I guess, but its so hard to get out of this slump. My motivation before came from people but now it's going to have to come from myself